I lay in bed
Staring at the wall
Waiting for it to come
For the footsteps down the hall
I hear the sound
The steps upon the floor
Approaching my direction
Until they’re at my door
I close my eyes
I shake with fear
“God, make him go”
I plead with a tear
But I don’t think God hears
The sounds of little cries
Coming from little girls
Who ask too many “Why’s?”
I wish I could hide in a corner
But that’s my cue to fly
Leave my body to be raped again
While I watch up high
I watch him overshadow me
A body lifeless, limp and dead
He takes another piece of me
Each time he rocks the bed
It’s back and forth again
He says to him it’s fun
A final, heavy sigh
Now I know he’s done
I lay there frozen
Wanting just to speak
I cannot move a muscle
Well aware that I am weak
Shaking in my body
Sleep’s impossible to find
I wonder what I did
For treatment of this kind
Did I clean up well?
Eat all the veggies on my plate?
Forget to do my homework?
Was I staying up too late?
What did I do?
Please tell me what I did
I promise I will fix it
I’ll be a better kid
Nothing comes to mind
Of nothing I can think
“But I know it’s all my fault”
I say as my heart sinks
A fog rolls in my mind
My thoughts become a haze
I’m becoming very distant
Like I’m trapped inside a maze
The words get jumbled
All I feel is numb
I try hard to understand
But in exhaustion I succumb
Words are now gone
Silence eludes all
Then I wait in dread
Till again he comes to call
By Diana