I am a Woman…

I am a woman who has an eating disorder, but I am not an eating disorder.  My eating disorder has been an expression of my feelings and beliefs, a way of meeting unmet needs, and a way for me to numb deep pain.  I am a woman, not a failure for not being a specific…

Word Picture On Betrayal

“Betrayal is like being given an ice cream sundae by someone I like and trust.  The big person is nice and seems to like me and enjoy me in ways that others do not.  I feel special when he offers me ice cream.  He encourages me to try a topping and whipped cream.  I enjoy…

Dear Shame:

It’s me again. I know it’s been a while since we’ve talked, but somehow every now and then you manage to find your way back into my life. I’ve decided that I can no longer continue to have a relationship with you because you’ve slowly destroyed bits and pieces of me and the person I…

The Wounded Healer

“But he was wounded for our transgressions; He was crushed for our iniquities;Upon Him was the chastisement that brought us peace,and with His stripes we are healed.”Isaiah 53:5             What do we do with the question of pain?  So many of us question God because of the pain we have experienced or the pain we…

Unexpected Blessings

Several years ago I was in a lot of emotional pain. I had just finished going through an abuse group similar to our Passionate Heart Groups and I couldn’t cry yet. At the time, I was also going through painful circumstances in a ministry that couldn’t be resolved and I was so exhausted that I…

Sexual Abuse Robber of Innocence and Life

Sexual abuse how you have robbed meYou stole my innocence and life the way God intended it to beYou kept me in a chain with sins and behaviors I couldn’t refrainYou took over my mindDepression , shame and fearwere the mountains I daily climbedSexual abuse the robber of innocence and lifeMany a might I cried…

Invisible Wounds

To some, it seems, that others do not count;they are seen but do not matter.Pain inflicted which is not observedor perceived by outward measure,does not at all exist.  The affliction that is deeply hidden withinis far greater than the observable scarsor bloody, oozing gashes.These secret hurts, like cancerous tumors, permeate carelessly at will. These illusive injuries…

ON DEPRESSION

It comes silently and zaps you. It takes you away and leads you down the stairs to gloom. No one knows how deep you go and how hard it is to hold on. It wants to take you in its grip and lead you to your death. It takes away all of your joy, your…

Where was the Laughter

Where was the Laughter Just saw the tears Everyone’s hurting A life filled with fear Too much for a child Can’t possibly cope No help in sight Never had any hope                      –Anonymous

Trust

By Mary Beth & Jared Dragoon Verse 1 Bounded by the thoughts of past I can’t seem to unwind The one I believed in put me away To places I shouldn’t have been To places I didn’t want to go So there I was falling, falling Chorus 1 Taken to a place lies believed Where…

Victim To Survivor

As a child I laughed and talked and sang and danced untilI was given a reason to cry and told that I couldn’t.I longed to tell and I longed to die. As a child my body was groped and touched and used in waysthat no child should ever have to endure.I was afraid to tell…

Just a Little Girl

I was just a little girl So little, fragile and small I offered a token of my love But my daddy took it all I was just a little girl Hardly knowing wrong from right You asked me to lick your pee pee I just the perfect height I was just a little girl Longing…

Night as a Girl

I lay in bed Staring at the wall Waiting for it to come For the footsteps down the hall I hear the sound The steps upon the floor Approaching my direction Until they’re at my door I close my eyes I shake with fear “God, make him go” I plead with a tear But I…

Tears

Tears are universal, They speak a language we all know. They tell of hurt and sadness, And the fear we wish would go. We all cry tears for different reasons, Some from loss, some from pain, Some from being touched as a little girl, And knowing we’ll never be the same. With tears we try…

Where Were You?

I don’t know when it started, The beating, touching and kissing, I don’t know if you knew, But there was something missing. You were the missing piece, So I stood up for all, I needed you to stand for me And help me not to fall. You wouldn’t or you couldn’t, Whichever word fits right,…

You Are Mine – A Reminder Of Hope

It’s not your fault my darling It was not you who did the wrong Just grow and bloom where planted Even though the growing’s long It’s not your fault my love He chose the heinous sin Let it not hold back your beauty Of the blooming rose within It’s not your fault dear one Hold…